Flashes of light.

Well, I've been keeping way too many late nights again, trying to divide my time between two coasts. I'm inevitably up until midnight many nights but thank goodness, no late night pics of me have been taken so far :) I still wonder when and how this will end and if I can manage it all quite honestly.

Progress is being made on redesigning my house of secrets blog site to make it more user friendly, thanks to Jordan. I literally watch him work via my computer, as he uses the knowledge he's gained. He had a good foundation when he headed to SF, but is now self taught and has amazing abilities on the web.

As Logan cleaned out and caulked in a bathroom at our rental, and Jordan quickly finds ways to work things out online, I see evidence of their dad's abilities in them. Quick learners. Very resourceful. It's really crazy how suddenly those flashes of the light he was, comes into sight..........

That light has to beat the darkness left behind when one departs or a relationship falls apart. There has to be a way to glean the goodness out of the hardship. The story of Ruth, a young widow mentioned in the Bible, reminds me of this very thing. She grew, gleaned, and gave birth to goodness...........

Each time I write to you, I am challenging myself too. I haven't conquered on my own but continue to climb as do countless others. There are many days I am doing things and feel in a fog, because I am running myself ragged. It isn't necessarily all about survival anymore, but there's little I can do to just relax. I guess it goes with this territory......... for now.

I know I talk about "faith" which can, for many, feel like a catch phrase for religious stuff. For me, it comes down to really seeing what I say I'm believing in. Being persuaded that nothing I see can shake the hope I have, whether on a personal, national, or global scale.

On this Monday, several pieces of good news came for which I had faith to believe for:) It is not an easy thing when there is little to no evidence things will work out. 
But when they do, I know it is divine intervention which I am desperately searching for.......... and putting my faith in.

Goodnight all.