After any heartbreak, ache, or loss of love, the need to self protect becomes so natural, so strong. It is a natural instinct, one of survivors; those who go to great lengths to protect what has become very precious.
Until acquainted with grief on a deep level, it is difficult to define............

Rather than reaching out, isolation is much easier. There is little to risk in self protection; my risk is calculated and I must constantly choose to take it. I learned very quickly the importance of reliance on others and to make requests of another. Their response is not in my control..... unfortunately.

The only response I can control is my own which is easier said than done, but we have returned with a "chill out" attitude, lol. The heart can harden all to quick, and then the Lord in heaven has nothing to work with. And so, I choose to remain pliable, flexible, and adaptable....... go with the flow.

At the start of our second week home, my oldest son is adjusting to time zone differences with work connections. There are a lot of demands on his time, and further adjustments and flexibility is required of him right now, as he comes back into our home to spend this transitory season in his life.

He has stepped into rental situations in which I need help for now, as we map out a plan going forward. He is a gem and I never want to hold him back. That is the challenge with our loss we continue to navigate:/
There are no easy answers, but Divine Intervention I have come to count on.

As we move to end the month of March I have a feeling there will be a few things I will be faced with in which I will need to protect what is precious.....
Not everything in life brings me clear cut answers, most do not; however, I look for the faithful among the few.

Goodnight east and west.