The flow you cannot control.

Getting out of town definitely took my mind off of some unnecessary drama that has escalated in the last 3 months. I have had to rearrange some priorities and go with a flow I seemed to have stepped into, and am now am carried along in.

Being in a flow can seem a little beyond my control; finding a flow of direction, easing along with what is current. Stagnation keeps one still and many are comfortable at that pace in life. I know I don't go with the status quo, but the flow..........

To be honest, in the last few weeks and days, I have had to confront a few liars in our lives. Tears have prepared my path....... It is not the most comforting position to take, but acting with courage is never comfortable. I expect an advantage as I act in appointed times..........

Surprisingly, seeing SoCal VB friends was one of the best things to come out of JO's. When you're part of the volleyball family there, you remain a part of it forever I'm told. The level of play at which Logan attained is actually astounding. The maturity to come forth from my kids............. tremendous.

I hugged and smiled a lot upon seeing friendly faces on the courts, from the boys to parents, than I have in a while. A feeling of knowing and acceptance really felt good; we had been through some stuff, on and off the court, that brought the depth that was lacking while we were there in CA. Crazy cool.

Today consisted of cleaning up, making contacts, and preparing for my week. It is a big one............

I have made a decision. I am going to put part of my properties up for sale. Tomorrow, my 3 rental homes on 2.5 wooded acres is going to be listed for sale. It is time. This is the first property we purchased after a year of marriage, which set our family on a trajectory for 20+ years.....

These moments are bittersweet.