"The will of God will never take you where the grace of God cannot sustain, keep, enable and protect you." This may seem like another cliche' type of saying, but tonight, it speaks to my heart.

After trauma hit and life impacted so harshly, it's kind of like I learned to brace myself for anything. Disappointments suddenly felt very real and possible; destruction had come to my doorstep and knocked. I have been conditioned by one loss, and the subsequent ones to come............

I did not realize the "tremors" that would follow the trauma. All of the aftermath that follows the potential destruction. The need to remove the debris, clear out anything deemed dangerous, survey the landscape, and get a clear picture of the damage. And all before rebuilding can begin.

Before that can take place, that which has been destroyed has to be removed. Getting in and getting my hands dirty, while keeping my heart clean, free from offense, fear, and doubts, is key to staying solvent. I didn't necessarily know everything I would discover in the debris......

Finding the precious amidst the profane has brought about multiple new memories as we move forward. Those disappointments have settled; I am ready for some new conditioning. The trauma will always lead me to a bad place, but the triumphs, even if little ones, have got to be used to build a future foundation............

The grace that has become my close confidante' is what I extend to others, whether suffering, successful, or somewhere in between smile emoticon