In the last few years, I have encountered and engaged many types of people. I have had the great pleasure of meeting all kinds from coast to coast, on the many ventures we have had. As I share my raw emotion, others are enabled to be real themselves........ and open up.
Countless times I have noticed how we often trap ourselves within the walls of pain. It's as if when loss hits, there is a never ending suffering associated with it and attaches itself to the "victim." No matter the length of time that passes, whether 1 year, 5 years, 10 or even 30, we can choose to punish ourselves and become eternal prisoners to the pain....... until you say NO MORE.
I strongly dislike the helpless feeling I have in knowing the answers but without a listening ear to hear. Finding freedom is a key part to taking back the power that trauma has taken from each of us who have felt its sting. I am like a flag raised. A Banner waving. You can do it too.
Today the scripture from Isaiah 43 spoke to me as I heard it in my heart.... "Behold I am doing a NEW THING; can you perceive it?" It's like saying, wake up, forget what's happened before and get on board now. Allow yourself to get out of the trauma and torment, and train to live life.
I believe strongly that 2016 has started out with a sense of renewal, as if a book has just closed and a new story is being written. In the first full week alone, there are blessings on blessings. But....... I have had to fight for them.
When trauma wanted to be my truth, I fought through it. While grief could occupy my thoughts, I pushed past it. As betrayals were in my midst, I got on my knees. And I'm finding more freedom than I ever imagined.
I can always feel as if the walls to protect my pain are being built back up; however, I have come to learn there is nothing that cannot be conquered.
I choose to tear them down. Make your own choice.