We can't bypass grief. It is like driving a car and trying to pass, you may feel as if you get ahead for a brief moment, only to get held up by another. in the same lane. There is a pace needed to pass through to move into the open lanes where a sense of freedom is felt. Occasionally, there is another slow down. Finding patience in the process is key to working it through.
Even if I am moving at a good clip, others are not. They seem to take their good old time, not aware of my impatience factor, or the intensity in which I have chosen to live. Seeing one die and feeling the impact of a loss changes a person. It has changed me. I have chosen to let it change me. I choose to live life with zest; this may however, be cause for concern if I move "too fast."
Finding a balance with speed and momentum, capitalizing and creating, cruising and being comfortable is a work in progress for me. Just when I think I may have found a sense of control, reality gives me a wake up call and I remember comfort is not my calling. It can be exciting or thrilling taking part in the process of a movement or momentum; however, not all have the stamina to keep up the pace.
Some take the ride with me for a time and then suddenly, step out. The feelings of needing to be in control or the fear of feeling out of it take over. Tendencies to slow down, be methodical, and melancholy can be pretty strong unless the pull and the drive is to be in gear, in motion, and pedal to the medal.
There are times to pull over and park; take some time off the beaten path to reflect and rest. With so much to do and dreams to accomplish, the need to continue to cruise is a force that is magnetic. The scenery and sights can be indescribable on an incredible journey like my own. My hope and intent is that through me, you may just find your own.....................