Written deep in my heart.

Seasons come and go in life when it seems as if the toughest of times are upon us, personally and nationally. These moments are meant to strengthen not strip one of power............ it is then that purpose is perceived and action is taken.........

Character is built in a culture who has been through stuff together; in communities who care for each other. Contrary to what I believe in and hope for, this concept is not found everywhere. If you have found it, freely share with others. If not, find your "family," a place you do belong.

Reflecting on my personal history is so much more important than wiping it away, or pretending the past never happened. That is insanity. I can't rewrite history but allow it to be used as a reminder, and "writing those words on my heart."

These reminders, when written deep in the heart, will enable me to never forget the journey and what it has taken to get where I am going...... and I am going somewhere. 
They serve as a constant in life and are what brings me back to "home."

I took a big leap of faith today as I made a decision I've deliberated for weeks about. When faced with it I was reminded of my May-September timeline; time set aside to strength my core for the coming shift. There is so much insanity in this space......... I am coming back to my center.

I am grateful for the support I've gotten in order to take this next step which is risky. I will share more in the coming days. My heart is a little bit lighter tonight....................

Style.

Over the course of the last year, I have seen my youngest mature, physically, emotionally, and mentally. There is a lot to be impressed about, but tonight, there was something extremely special and rare, that many adults cannot even comprehend..........

After coming through a very difficult situation with a so called "friend" and teammate in the spring, my then 16 year old had every reason to hold a grudge, be offended, and disgusted. He was justified, as I was even in relating to this young man's parents. Horrible things had been said to us............

Rather than hold onto it, we chose to forgive..... because there will always be someone who will mistreat you or screw you over, pardon my language. But I feel, forgiveness leads to a future and is all worth it. In the last few years alone, there are many reasons why we could feel "wronged." That, however, becomes a complete waste of time.

Today as the HS beach team scrimmaged their rivals, I watched Logan's response to this young man. It was an act of maturity and decency and strong character on his part. Making choices that lead to life.........

I haven't been a parent who has done repetitive prayers or recurring scripture memory with my kids. Even when their dad was alive and they were younger, we were not a conventional couple. I figured I could never ever do everything "right."

What I choose to do.... is live the lifestyle I say I believe in. This has a far greater impact on the past, present, and future.