While we came to Southern Cal for opportunities to play our favorite sport, we have so much more in mind. I am fast becoming a single mom whose decided that I need to do whatever it takes to stay here, if that's what we want. I really am no longer giving myself an out like, "if we can make it......"

So many are looking to make a name for themselves in this land; everywhere you turn, there is someone to learn from or find out about. And so much drama. Some have a story, others get lucky it seems. In one way or another, I'm finding you can't replace our East Coast roots:)

Plans to increase my hours at Prudential CA are an option as school comes to a close and in order to help cover our increasing expenses that are unforeseen:/ Two kids are in transition periods and need jobs.

Chynna is an official college graduate of Kutztown University in PA, as she took her finals this week at Cal State Long Beach:) She is at a crossroads with many options ahead..... two job interviews in a week, so we're hopeful. USA VB Transition is complete; now we wait to hear.

The reality is that without their dad, things are tougher and tighter. They don't have him to count on for support; none of us do. They have to pull their weight and getting that message across isn't always the easiest. It's not something I ever wanted for them.

The boys have had to grow up far faster than most. Jobs are in the forefront for both. Logan will be finishing school in a few weeks; Austin's college plans may be slightly delayed due to financial aid issues:/ Working on that one.

Photos were taken of the Redondo Boys VB Team this week and Logan gave an interview today. The release date for an article in a local beach paper should happen this weekend. I hope to have an online link to share this time:) Quarter finals for playoffs are tomorrow afternoon in Orange, CA.

The focus on myself the past 7 days has been good. I've come to realize many things I will share over time. Face to face with fears, foes, and finding the fortitude to do what I need to do for the future.......

"Innocent." by Anberlin