A new found friend recently shared with me the impact loss had upon her family and the effects felt in years after. More than 8 years later, how this mystery known as loss resurfaces, rises in our reactions, and lead to bad behaviors blamed on it.
Connecting the dots or fitting pieces of a puzzle together is needed to give a more complete picture of a person..........

I realized afresh after facing our 4 year mark a few days ago, how the face of a family changes drastically. Not only did I or do I mourn the loss of my loved one, but I have and do in many ways, mourn who I used to be.........
To say everything has changed is an understatement.

Two of the kids had moments on the 4th in which we realize the future that seemed so far away at one point, is now coming very close. In that realization, I feel like it is still so very surreal; life, such as a last HS graduation, blossoming relationships, and overall ventures. It is crazy.

With all the traveling I have done, I'm sure you think I'd be fine with making it all happen by now. But I still have moments where I pause, each time, just as when Logan and I traveled to VA together...... and I remember when I didn't have to go it alone.

I am very glad i had a partner who tried to be there.... and took care of them........ and me. From carrying luggage to getting coffee, to making sure he had enough water, running out for extras; when he was with us, he was present and helpful. Anything for the kids smile emoticon

This is not a pity party or pathetic attempt at sympathy, but rather a reminder. It is the little things that make each day special. Those simple things that can go unnoticed or forgotten, speak. Sometimes, most times, it takes me going out of my way, getting out of myself, to give........

Don't ever get too busy in life to notice another person .......... Make them matter.