It's seems like forever since I have needed to rest like I have had to this week. This muscle spasm has been one of the most painful things I've dealt with in a long time. After a mini spasm this morning, and a work over from my chiropractor Jen, I'm hoping to be getting through this soon.

I've used heat, now icing due to swelling, and napping to catch up on the sleep I've missed at night. I'm thinking there's a big message in this for me, but I'm struggling a bit to see it. I guess my decisions aren't the easiest for some to understand........

Like any stereotypical mom, I still am putting others needs before my own necessities. I use the term "mom" because we typically are familiar with self sacrifice; not always I know, but there is a certain level of unselfishness that I have learned and freely give.....

Until too much of myself is taken from me and I am left, a shell.

Whether I like it or not, I believe this time has been set aside for me because I could not have taken time to rest. Therefore, I am determined to take care of this, so I can be back on track, better than ever.

Again I see, and feel, an overall lack of support systems and in relationships all across the board; not as bad as in Cali, but still prevalent. I know the value of support and until it is taken away, you don't know what you are missing...... or how you will function.

It brings out the best in a family, community, or nation; and likewise, can bring out the worst. In my way of thinking, the worst can be purged; a system built; a structure of support established. That is my part of my vision.........

I've been using my "muscle" to build it.......