Who knew the challenge it would be to find my identity after the loss suffered...... and most importantly, once found, to keep it.

Day in and day out, I am called to renew my mind in order to keep my soul restored. Without that soul restoration spoken of in Psalms 23, the infamous "valley of the shadow of death" passage, I will never move on from suffering........

Whenever one experiences a measure of restoration, the enemy of wholeness, makes all attempts to rob me of my victories. It takes a strength I have cultivated deep within to counter it with determination and a winning attitude.

Today was one such day. As I fight for the life of others, by acting almost like a therapist, coach, or counselor, having objectivity is key. If I speak from my pain, rather than from a place I reign from, I am only enabling bad behaviors, and supporting suffering......

I encourage LIFE and everything it takes to live it!

Last night I saw GREAT rewards of the life I have fought to preserve in my youngest son. He performed in the Mr. Brandywine competition with such finesse, confidence, and attitude, I couldn't help but think about how proud his dad would be. He represented well............

To think of where he has come in four very short years is astounding, which convinces me my principles work, by the GRACE of God. Having said that, it makes everything done, every moment lived, all worth it, on the west coast, and the east.

He was runner up in the show and showed us some moves we haven't seen before smile emoticon It was amazing to see him dance with his 6 year old beautiful talented cousin Ava Anders smile emoticon Pictures are coming.

It is not with sorrow that I anticipate his graduation, Chynna's wedding, Jordan's movements, or the growth Austin has had in many area, but with great JOY. That joy is tested, tried, and almost taken at times, but I will never let go.................