Trauma. Once experienced, it cannot be undone. It sticks with me and is not easily removed. Trauma can shape the psyche and potentially targets the soul of a person........

No one can possibly understand or judge the emotional and mental impacts trauma makes. For many, it is the underlying cause of outbursts and reactions, pain and turmoil. Most do not know how to cope, let alone find the place of true wholeness......

I have come to a point where I recognize the impact; I feel the devastation. I see when I shut down; know when I go numb. I have made great strides in this recovery process, but have many more steps to go.

Unfortunately, there are often judgments made about the capacity of one another to handle events, episodes, and situations based on personal experiences. Very few are understanding, let alone objective. After all, it's been "more than 4 years".........

There is no time limit on the effects of trauma.
There are also no restraints on the power of redemption........

I prepared myself pretty early on after death for the misunderstandings and misinterpretations of my actions or lack thereof; but unless you walk in a widow's shoes, or are willing to try, please do not pass those judgments.

I have come to a time in my life where my slate is clean, my plate is being cleared; time is of the essence. I have lived long enough, over 4 years ago in fact, to be tied to deadlines, dread, and many other things/people attempting to dictate the outcome of my life.

My eyes are wide open. My arms lifted up. My knees on the floor.
Right where I need to be.........

"Have faith in the Lord your God and you will be upheld..... Give thanks to the Lord, for his love endures forever......" 2 Chron. 20