Struggles.

Since the path of my life took a drastic and unexpected turn in the fall of 2011, I can totally understand the impact of post traumatic stress. It seems a shift happens in the psyche and it becomes tough to feel anymore........

David, the King, Psalmist, and creative genius, shared his heart and emotions in a most eloquent way. He exposed himself in ways that seem contradictory and contrasting, as he shared his daily struggles in dealing with life and death.

He put himself out there and became a target for those he offered his help to, those he was willing to serve. As he took his brothers food on the battlefield, he was even dealing with insecurities and threats because of their own issues. This didn't deter him, only emboldened....

I figure if even after all that drama, he could step up to slay his giant with one well placed stone, perhaps that is just what I should being praying for as well....

This week's been a blur with business to deal with, as changes imposed upon me in health and homeowner's insurances become clearer... and yet in the midst of it all, I've done things I never have before. If the old passes, the new can come forth.

I say goodbye to April, a month of unveiling, acceleration and change, in ways I wasn't quite prepared for. I always want to align myself with the will of God and do my best to find it.

If you're not in the right place at the right time, it doesn't matter how "well" you're doing...... which is why David could stand on a battlefield, "unarmed", with his wits about him and be a winner. I want the same.

I thought I was stronger with a partner rather than as a single woman, but my experience is telling me the exact opposite. Picking out my stone......