A day filled with volleyball brought me the reminder I definitely needed and focused me again on the reason I'm here. Sitting on Hermosa Beach was like a very hot summer day back East, only it's March! Big crowds, little parking. Some days I wonder where I am headed....... most of my kids love it here.

Chynna is making her way onto the scene, slowly finding VB connections and planning her course. It's very tough to be at the top in one arena and then start all over in another area. As she trained on the beach Friday, pro players were on the court beside her and Austin:)

Today she participated in the USA VB High Performance Beach tryouts for her age group and met several girls; good stuff for her reffing and playing. She keeps persevering. Good things take time.......

Austin reffed a total of 24 games Saturday and I made three trips to Anaheim in one day because we're down to one car until tomorrow. No time for me to sleep in or catch up this weekend. He's getting lots of sun and his hair is getting blonder:)

I soaked up the hot sun watching Logan tryout with his group for High Performance Beach, for the first time ever. He's recognizing familiar faces after being here almost 7 months. Being minutes from Hermosa is the only possible way it can happen.

My babies are growing up and as they dream their own dreams, I'm reminded of how mine have changed. As I set goals and think about the future, my situation becomes even more real. A housing change here will be in the near future, reevaluating financial needs, trying to squeeze everything I can out of what we have. It gets old. Keeps me focused on the need to write.... and expand.

This new normal is weird, scary, exciting, invigorating, and challenging but......

"Belief is not a matter of choice but of conviction." (source unknown)