Reading my daughter's words of wisdom below brings me to tears..... haven't cried in a while. Surprised? It is true. I realized something today...... I've been afraid to "let go" of home because I don't want to feel loss again.

In reality, my life alone was beginning; I was carving a path, even though I felt like I was spinning my wheels the first 18+ months. There was motion and the movement was necessary, nurturing me to another point in life. Friendships were growing and I was adjusting to new activities......

Instead I embraced a path of purpose, putting everything I say I have faith in, to the test. A friend texted today about how life goes by too quickly; I told him I live everyday with that in mind, not motivated by fear but fueled with the future....... I often wonder if I can do this.

I've shared very personal things with you and I will continue..... what might be revealed in the next few weeks, may be raw emotions.... again. This new apartment has given us a sanctuary of sorts, a place of peace that is offering another opportunity......Good things will come from my "gleaning."

Big 3 day pre-Houston tournament this weekend with Team Rockstar in Anaheim. Lots of Cali teams and others come to play for "points", so we'll get a preview of JO's. Tomorrow Logan plays a team from WI:) Austin's enjoying use of the Toyota while his sister is away:) Got some playing on the beach in today!

Chynna's enjoying rekindling her East Coast connections with a pre-Rumble party tonight:) The giggles of my nieces she texted on video today light up my life; I can't help but smile......

Wondering what establishing roots will look like here.......

I guess moving out of my comfort zone, literally and figuratively, has brought me to this place of evaluating who I am going to be. I know I've said it before, but there are many layers that have been stripped off of me....... and more peeling away.

Had I stayed in the same place, this unveiling would not be happening, at least not in the accelerated way I'm experiencing. As Chynna shared pictures from up to 6 years ago, I am astounded but the kids even more so. I am not the same person. So weird.....

I needed Chynna to give my Ford Escape a jump this morning because it wouldn't start. I made it to work, changed afternoon plans and headed home to meet a AAA technician who came to diagnose my car battery. The highlight of the day was being mistaken for a college student, lol:)

I made a "new friend" in the driver, who later gave me his "real name" and number because he knew we're new to the area. He's married, so no worries:) Thankfully, it was only the battery and nothing more; got a new one and all fixed up again.

Lots of really personal things happening in my heart...... and the "dead battery" is kind of a picture of a new "power" I need to proceed. I've been running on enough to keep me going, but it's time to be fully charged and functional. It turns out, I needed my daughter's help yet again.......

She's flying back East tomorrow and we are super excited for her:) It'll be the longest we've been separated since I arrived here October 1. I know this trip will invigorate her, and she will bring that great energy back to us:)
I hope many of you can say hi to her at the Rumble!

It won't be long now...... goodnight.