We've had a vast array of experiences since setting foot in Southern California, many of which I would not need to relive. But I do not regret things either, because I am a better person for it. Too many times I think we move through life trying to forget things we should remind ourselves of......

I'm told folks of all kinds flocked here 30+ years ago, to a place that held freedoms, fun, and futures..... the CA of yesteryear perhaps. It seems as a way of escaping everyday life, loss, and past loves, a "paradise" of sorts was created, yet the intrusion into personal lives, locally and on the state level is astounding. I could write a book, lol.

I honestly did not realize the amount of freedoms afforded on the East Coast. My eyes have been opened. We come from a land very unique; real estate is affordable and where dreams can be discovered.
An area where my sons can shoot basketball with friends for fun, have a pool party, throw football with family/friends, make some noise, listen to music, drive a car easily, and freely play with pets. Most important, you know who your "friends" are. and who you can call on........

Chynna has begun her online Personal Training course to become certified; this plan aligns nicely with her desires as a coach, player and for our purposes. She already has had a few "clients", lol. I told her she can continue to whip me into shape:)

Only two weeks after my core fitness class ended, I've done the workouts on my own, and seemed to have "hurt" myself ha ha. I'm the kind of person that needs a trainer! With a few minor injuries, I may be signing up for the next course, starting next week.

I set aside the time from May through September for a very specific purpose, and as I look back over these months, I can see pieces of our purpose unfolding. It's okay to reflect and look back on where you were to where you currently are; however, that doesn't mean the move ends.

I don't want to be a "pillar of salt", a "preservative" left in a pile that just
sits there, as told in the story of Lot's wife.

This is only just the beginning......

So... I experienced MY first earthquake last night, a 5.3 from what I've heard. I was on the sofa when the shaking began, Austin laying on our bed. It was a weird shifting feeling that lasted a few seconds. The kids and I touched based immediately after to make sure each was okay. New experiences.

The fear felt after loss can be completely consuming.... the loss of a loved one, mobility, loss of income, a love, or personal freedom. Any and all provide the excuse we look for to remain content and comfortable, or at the minimum depressed. I have chosen to do the opposite which has facilitated an ability to overcome........

I'm spending a lot of time on the road these days driving, more than ever before if that was possible! Today was a "normal" Saturday for me spent cleaning our little apartment and running Logan to and fro. Practice for beach tourney tomorrow. Looks like a move is in our future as we plan to change apartments when the lease is up:/

I can't hold onto anything too tightly; home is where my heart is and who I love spending time with. With that in mind I'm mentally preparing for the housing change this summer. Chynna would like to move out on her own so a lot of pieces have to come together.

Tonight I reminded my son that he can talk to me about anything, even if uncomfortable, I realized afresh this week that his dad isn't here to do the guy talks like most kids have available. I never want Logan to feel slighted in that way, but it is part of loss.

Jordan got his first passport ever which was pretty exciting to me:) Who knows how far he will go.......... He found a room in the Mission District of SF for the month of April, and then we'll see where he lands.

Another day in so called paradise.......