You know, there have been a lot of days where there's been "hell" to pay...... 2 1/2 years ago was one of them. If you're on a journey through transition and onto transformation, it probably means like me, you've been there and back many times. But that's okay.....

There are so many uncertainties.... and I can choose to focus on fears or face them down with courage and conviction. I did just that today, as I continue to press for answers regarding getting approval for Austin to live here. I can't say too much more about the situation, but you're getting the picture.

All your comments, support, and love I feel from home and here have been so empowering..... I cannot thank you enough, from the bottom of my heart. We are here for all of you, as much as our dreams......

As we come through another "hell week" here, we do have good news to share... Logan received an invitation from USA VB, to return for transition week in May, as a Beach High Performance Athlete:) He will train on Hermosa Beach next week to see if he can make it as part of an elite team of U19s. We'd been waiting for an email and it came today.... on the 4th:)

We packed up from our comfy, feels like home, hotel and heading to the apartment at noon. Chynna and I took a drive to Palos Verdes or PV as it's locally known, a place of serenity and beauty almost in our "backyard." We talked about her dad......

He was a forerunner for us, having moved to Bakersfield, CA, almost 30 years ago. He worked in a cabinet shop but at some point, decided to return to the East. I suppose he couldn't see a future here for himself, but perhaps prepared the way somehow.... for his family's future.

We know he'd love access to the beach, physical activities, like running, and swimming. I think he'd even try surfing; being physically active and fit was important to him, almost obsessively so. He instilled that importance to his family and the kids are stronger than they've ever been.... in many ways.

My husband was always the "strong" one, physically speaking, but I too, feel stronger now. The irony is that so many things have tried to weaken my will. Since determining to change my patterns, I'm walking more than ever and I feel a mental shift taking place. "Fit for His use." Love you all.

"All This Time"........ One Republic