Hope.

Mother's Day one year ago, I knew my role as a mom would shift to a new level. Within weeks of that day, we were planning a move. As Sunday, May 11 approaches, I can feel another change is on the way...........

As a mom and woman, I never tried to take the place of their dad's absence, or insert myself into his position; nor be the mom who micro-managed their lives. I just try to be myself.....

I'm not sure what this transition will look like, but I'm definitely challenged by this phase in life, as a single female. I came here for my kids and now I'm setting aside time to further examine why I am here. If I'm not intentional about it, I'll miss it.

The opportunities many see as "normal", having grown up here, my kids see as incredible. What some take for granted, others sacrifice so much to be part of........ with the nice weather and lifestyle, it feels like we're in a bubble sometimes.

I've decided to begin "training" for myself, as I absorb the many changes my body has undergone in 2 1/2 years ..... physically, mentally, emotionally, and economically. I need to take stock of my "worth and value" and figure out how to invest in myself...........

Chynna played her first Open Beach VB tournament in beautiful Laguna Beach, and with a partner from FL she met while training with USA VB. Going from the top levels in Grass Doubles back East to a beginner at beach has been a change, but she is excited to learn and loves to train hard. Lord willing, she will find a job that will work with her new schedule, in order to keep up her current lifestyle.

When I was interviewed this week, the pursuit of our dreams was a reoccurring factor in the conversation. When I hear myself saying where we have come from, what we have back home, and where we hope to go, even I can hardly comprehend it. It's very cool when new friends connect to with a dream that remains to be seen......

There really are not too many mothers who could be as supportive as I've found my mom to be:) As I shared the news of our plans to move west with her last July on a trip to FL for VB, I know it wasn't easy to hear. But rather than holding on too tightly, my mom knew what we had to do.....

As I put my pen to paper this week, I accredit her with showing me ways to support my kids and send them out to do what they need to do, which isn't always what's easiest for me. I couldn't ask for someone more good-natured and supportive than my mom:) We love you.

I have countless concerns and endless responsibilities which many mothers feel...... but one thing remains. "This hope I have as an anchor for my soul... both sure and steadfast."