Perhaps because I have reached midlife along with many around me, or as the result of the road I have traveled, but life is not exactly how I pictured it would be. In this delicate economy and fragile state of our soul, it seems that anything can happen at any given point in time...........

I think we all can feel it or sense it; if not, you might be living in La La Land, literally, lol. I'm reminded the Word says anything that "can be shaken will be," and I know personally, I have felt the tremors. The idea of shaking means something IS going to give way; somehow, in someway, it will move......... or I will.

During the times I am shaken is when I need to hold on the most and know I will soon be free, if I do not fear. The shaking is meant to bring me closer to freedom. For those who sought freedom in ancient days, life got harder before it got better. But one of the first things God called them to do in order to be free...... was to MOVE.

Putting yourself, a plan, or relationship in motion is probably one of the hardest things to pursue. It requires thought, inspiration, and more motivation than we often have in ourselves or our faith. It is then that we must reach out to others to help us walk the journey.........

Today I was blessed once again to be back east, to hang with my mom and nephew Aidan at breakfast while the Godshall family gathered Miah and their things to head home:) To be here to help out, support and encourage is priceless to me......... things that could shake us will serve to make us stronger.

Hebrews 12 talks about the endurance needed at points in life when giving up and giving in, seems like the easiest thing to do. We can never give up, ever. Freedom is worth the journey................

P.S. Happy Birthday our beautiful Ava Joy Anders!

The month of March is coming to an end, marking my six month stay in the South Bay. April is quickly on its way, with my sights set on an unfolding vision...... It seems we are on a MISSION.

My search for housing options will begin shortly, so planning to look for the coming future. Switching health insurance is almost complete which was a bit daunting initially. As one thing comes to an end, there is another insurance policy coverage to work through. I hate it.

The changes came as a result of my husband's death but now an outcome of my relocation process. Even if I'm here for an undisclosed length of time, certain steps much be taken. I'm deciding rather than to see things as one big overwhelming load, I am taking a piece at a time, and when I can handle it.

The plan for my sister's family to move in and enjoy my house and community has been in place for 8 months. Their home in Bowmansville outside of Lancaster County has recently sold in the last week which is part of their process in moving forward from grief. I love it when a plan comes together:)

As I prayed today asking God to continue to "fund" my ability to be here, I looked up and noticed the license plate ahead of me. It said JUDEAH which is a form of the name Judah and means Praise. It was confirmed to me that my praise of the God in heaven, in spite of my circumstances, is the way my "economy" will change......

Two days ago after making the same request of the Lord, we sold a few tools of my late husband's, totaling a few hundred dollars. With bills due and needs to meet, I find as I make my specific request, I am somehow always blessed. Jordan's cavalier was sold today as well, all in time for his new move into the MISSION DISTRICT.

Chynna completed two big days of reffing in L.A., while Logan and partner Lucas played their first CBVA game. Very windy day at the beach which dictates the plays of the game, but was a great learning experience. We think of the many years playing grass doubles back east, in all kinds of elements. The elements prepare you for anything...............

"Fear doesn't shut you down...... it wakes you up." (Divergent)