"I have been asked by inquisitive minds, who have wondered how I have endured such hardship, losses, and trials over the course of my life. From the issues of abandonment to accusations, losses of loves and ever evolving relationships, much is required from those who have been given much. It is a Biblical principle one cannot get away from.
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"I am learning in a very fresh way that life has a way of leaving me speechless. I see events occurring, life unfolding, leaving a divide seemingly insurmountable."
Read morePurposeful positioning.
"You know, I've been thinking........ I think it's safe to say we all want to be "blessed." But who and how many of us in actuality, will do what it takes to position ourselves for the blessing.........+
Read moreBlessed Beginnings.
"Even when hindsight is on my side and signs that speak are all around, there really is not any amount of courage that can help cope with life at times. I find courage grows when used; I muster even an ounce of it, and it tends to multiply........ but it is not something to keep in the reserves."
Read moreHope is healthy.
I have realized since my husband's passing, more so than any other time in my life, the importance of paying attention to my consumption. As a widow trying to make ends meet monthly, I literally watch what we consume; however, I am now talking about what feeds the soul.............
Too many times it's easy to dismiss something or someone as not harmful or we negate the effects, but I know the power of hope and hopelessness. Hopelessness is heavy. It makes me feel just a bit more on edge, fearful, and worried. Hope is heartfelt and healthy; it' is not processed, but fresh.
I end up turning off, tuning out, or disengaging in any toxic situation because I can't tolerate it any longer and I am a pretty tolerant person smile emoticon I want to hear an "I can do it" attitude, a "nothing will stop me" mantra in order to make it, as to not live under the weight of the worries....... I am tired of it.
In saying that, I am looking to start the month of May with many successes. In spite of a few setbacks at the Capitol Wednesday, I renewed my real estate license! Tomorrow, I sign the official papers as a Berkshire Hathaway Homeservices Realtor in PA smile emoticon And you can count on me to work hard for you:)
I do not give up.
It feels like another chapter in my life is beginning........
I have put in several hours at the rental we are turning around, with the help of the kids and John. We knew upon our return, we would need to get our "house in order", and I have several. As a landlord and manager, I must be present. I am fully engaged. "Spring cleaning" is almost complete.
I will hold showings tomorrow in hopes of finding a tenant to move in by May 1. Lord willing; I must be blessed in this area to continue. My husband had his way of doing things and we are figuring out ours. It is not easy; we are all working so hard still. The transition has been an intense one.
But just as a transition in labor comes to an end, there is a birthing that suddenly takes place; a time where everything comes into alignment and then boom, the blessing reveals itself. Getting to the point of delivery is intense, but once there, it is rewarding.........
Nite.
Shaken to freedom.
Perhaps because I have reached midlife along with many around me, or as the result of the road I have traveled, but life is not exactly how I pictured it would be. In this delicate economy and fragile state of our soul, it seems that anything can happen at any given point in time...........
I think we all can feel it or sense it; if not, you might be living in La La Land, literally, lol. I'm reminded the Word says anything that "can be shaken will be," and I know personally, I have felt the tremors. The idea of shaking means something IS going to give way; somehow, in someway, it will move......... or I will.
During the times I am shaken is when I need to hold on the most and know I will soon be free, if I do not fear. The shaking is meant to bring me closer to freedom. For those who sought freedom in ancient days, life got harder before it got better. But one of the first things God called them to do in order to be free...... was to MOVE.
Putting yourself, a plan, or relationship in motion is probably one of the hardest things to pursue. It requires thought, inspiration, and more motivation than we often have in ourselves or our faith. It is then that we must reach out to others to help us walk the journey.........
Today I was blessed once again to be back east, to hang with my mom and nephew Aidan at breakfast while the Godshall family gathered Miah and their things to head home:) To be here to help out, support and encourage is priceless to me......... things that could shake us will serve to make us stronger.
Hebrews 12 talks about the endurance needed at points in life when giving up and giving in, seems like the easiest thing to do. We can never give up, ever. Freedom is worth the journey................
P.S. Happy Birthday our beautiful Ava Joy Anders!