"Trust: Difficult to establish, yet so easily undone by a word, phrase, or action that plants a seed of doubt, or several. One seed, when watered and lit, will grow; Before you know it, roots establish themselves in truth or a lie, and spread........ and only a "firm grasp on reality or the divine" can pull out what has been planted.
Read moreAccept the Unacceptable
"Coming to terms with things that happen in life is probably one of the toughest transitions I have had to continually make. Perhaps because most time, it means my desires are not considered; my will in matters is mute.
Read moreNo more naysayers
"Seeing potential in a person, people group, community or nation can be a risky venture; most cannot see what I see..... and many are unwilling to take the leap of faith required to get results. It is easier to join the naysayers......."
Read moreSecrets and strength
""One of my greatest fears is mediocrity".... my young son said and wow, did those words hit me powerfully in the last week. He put into words exactly how I feel.... and perhaps many, if we could really want to push ourselves to be more than we think we can be....."
Read moreA place in time and space.
Loss invokes an emotion, precipitates activity, inflames arguments or creates a close knit community...........
When losing a loved one, no matter the avenue or addiction, life can feel like an unending fight. It seems you've just stepped into a larger place in time and space......... where purpose exists. Perhaps it is time we inspire the young with the idea of being exceptional........... a belief many adults have forgotten about because life got in the way..........
Throughout my own crazy recovery, I go through periods of feeling down and throwing my dreams away. It takes everything I have got in me to hold them close to my heart. But that is what makes them worth so much to me.
And then there are those miraculous moments, when my courage soars. That rare gift, courage, must be nurtured and protected. It must be recognized in the young and urged to grow........... God knows we do not need more of the status quo.
I praised my kids as they grew, and continue to do so, for who they are and the gifts they have. However, I did not and will not shower them with untruths. Because a relationship was established long ago, I can tell each the "truth" but with an unending love......... and there is a connection. I long for each child to know this feeling.............
When I say it is a privilege to hang out with my nieces and nephews, and young people who give me the time of day, I mean it sincerely. I know how quickly life passes, the full circle and cycles we go through. No one is ever too far gone, too far from "saving."
Some days I really long for a "partner", as relationships have shifted for me since I'm back on the East Coast. Today I picked up a 12" concrete riser that weighs almost 200 lbs. for the septic system at my house. Thankfully the boys could unload it at home smile emoticon We are making progress.
I have learned so much in a few years, more than some in a lifetime.
I have learned to reach out........ I have learned to say I need help. I have learned to take counsel and advice; to know who to trust and who/what to trash. It is actually a beautiful process to witness.
And I am learning to trust myself more......... Nite.