"Good news to report from Iowa today, as our Keystone Region HP team beat a New Zealand team at Nationals today! The tournament has begun, and thanks to good friends, I'm being kept up to date while home. Looking at Logan on the pics makes me realize how far he's come........"
Read moreSilent partners.
"The beauty of living a life of active faith for me is that there is always a chance for a fresh start. I have wondered how many times I may need it in my lifetime, but knowing the opportunity always exists is empowering. No matter if I try and fail or take a risk and succeed, the gift growth brings is something I do not want to live without....... I refuse to."
Read moreChange at any age.
Almost three years ago I knew my transition from full fledged homemaker to newly employed working woman was taking place. I ventured into a market that was familiar to me, having been partnered with a man in the remodeling realm for 25 years. Never did I imagine where it would take ME.........
Read moreFavor is for her.
Sometimes you just need a break; other times, it feels as if you are breaking through for something bigger than yourself. In a season of long-suffering, short or lengthy, there are a few key components I remind myself of.
Read moreThe flow you cannot control.
Getting out of town definitely took my mind off of some unnecessary drama that has escalated in the last 3 months. I have had to rearrange some priorities and go with a flow I seemed to have stepped into, and am now am carried along in.
Read moreTraining Day.
It's been said that it takes 21 days to develop or change a habit, so training has begun. My youngest son, whose been dedicated to conditioning since a young age, pointed out that life is training; training is part of life. I think we sometimes try to skirt around that issue......
Read moreAdditions.
There have been quite a few things happening in my life in the last number of weeks. At the moment, it is stuff that I can't discuss as freely as I want to. That probably adds to some frustration I feel…
Read moreBeing real.
The first time I stepped foot on the soil of Griffith Park in the California hills, overlooking the infamous Hollywood Sign, I received a word. This word went into my head, moved to my heart, and has settled in my soul, the seat of our emotions.
Read moreGentle Reminders.
You know sometimes, the very thing I need to say are the words that I find so difficult to speak; the actions I need to take are the toughest to embrace. There are always reasons to stay, but then there comes a time… when I have to rise to new heights… I sat through a 4 hour long class today with the Greater Lehigh Valley Realtor Association, and received my official Certification and Realtor Pin.
Read morePersonal security.
The challenging thing about moving on is the desire to feel settled. I had the husband, family life, home together every night, kind of lifestyle. Some days I'm okay alone, others, not as much. It feels like a push/pull, tug of war thing between my soul and my spirit. The one wants to settle; the other...... soar.
Read moreHolding a heart.
Today is an extra special one, as we celebrate Logan's 18th birthday. It seems fitting that I share with you the privileged view I have as his mom, and now as a single one.
Logan was the last one born but always the loudest, and as a baby, he never left my side. He was my smallest in size, and is now the tallest of my kids. I thought he would "blend in" but he has always been a stand out. You could say we were inseparable, lol..........
Logan was ever the entertainer, and that's a side few get to see:) He's always been very athletic, adept, and conditioned. He's had his share of experiences in his life, which will be revealed over time. Needless to say, seeing where he has been to where he is now......... is a blessing.
At ages 16 and 17, he can say he has lived on both coasts which has allowed him to grow exponentially as a person, player, and in his purpose. He has a lot to discover in the years to come, but will remained grounded as he did through an uprooting of life as he knew it.........
His CA friends miss him and his friends from PA have been so welcoming and warm. He continues to carry himself with respect as he holds himself to high standards. I hope his voice can be heard, his lifestyle will speak, and his character will echo throughout his generation..........
As adults in my generation, we have screwed a lot of things up for our kids. We either shelter them from anything difficult or declare their resiliency and dump our troubles upon them. All I have wanted to do is to provide some sense of stability in a time when everything was uprooted.
Even if I am struggling for myself, I have always tried to give that to my son. It does require sacrifice; I am filling the voice of both parents in his life, but I cannot change those facts. For some, there are decisions to do that. For others, it just happens.
I am choosing to not to lose my head, in order to hold a heart.........
Happy Birthday Logan Tanner.
Creating an opening.
After being in a committed relationship for 25 years, there are many life lessons I have learned over such a broad time period. From then until now, a lot has changed with the idea of a dynamic "duo" except the importance of communication........ which remains a key element in any healthy relationship.
It seems silly now....... how lots of little things build up between us over time; barriers are created between you and the one(s) you love. All the hurts and heartaches are the walls constructed that keep communications contained as we begin the mission of protecting ourselves.
Before you know it, the ceiling is hung. The open heavens are closed tight. Nothing gets in or goes out. Life stops. Existence starts. And we do it all over again, every day, unless there is intention.......... and creative communication starts up. That means taking a risk..............
Being 3 years into this, I have not stopped. This process which was meant to close me up has only opened me more to possibilities, potential, and purposefulness. I eat, sleep, and breathe it. Being back in the Berks region and beyond, I feel the desperation all the more...........
At my age and older, it's so easy to stop caring, stop reaching, and stop believing. I think we see the effects of this mentality on the younger generations. That is not okay. They need to know they are better than what they seem to be now. Barriers have to be broken down first.
I have intentionally been open with my kids, past and present, in good times and tough ones. I cannot carry things alone and they have been far stronger than imagined. Each need breaks, but I do not take one. I am too busy busting through the ceiling built.............
This weekend will be the first big return to Grass Doubles back East, which we had such fond memories of while in L.A. The sand of Hermosa will have to wait for now:)
Logan will tackle the Open Division tomorrow with a partner, and Sunday, he and his "sissy" will play together:) I gotta get there to watch!
A long, working weekend is planned for me, as usual, but goes with building a business. I signed my first clients up as Buyer's Thursday so I am ready to celebrate:) Fingers crossed our rental app is accepted! I am mopping, cooking, and making calls out of my home office for now.
When it's easiest to close up, think about availing yourself to openness. It may get you farther than you ever imagined.......